sometimes it's really hard to commit to a decision, no matter how much i know that decision is going to be good for me.
for the past few months, i've been meaning to get my body in shape. and although i've been going to the gym, i've also been smoking and drinking rather heavily.
the trouble was, as much as i knew i needed to stop, i never really made the decision to actually do it.
so i set a date, May 17, on which i would quit smoking. it's arrival was anticlimatic: one last smoke with a beer and that was it.
i've been cancer-stick free for about 3 days!
this quit has been going really well. i'm pretty shocked that this one tiny feat of self-control has made me feel exceedingly more optimistic about my physical capabilities than i have in a couple of years.
last time i quit, i went straight to the bar. this time, i took a couple days off from drinking, avoided temptation, and went on redirecting my energies into cleaning, working out, and computing.
now i'm feeling the inertia of clean-living and i think i might stick to it for a while. i've got my gym-zen back, at least momentarily. i got back into weight training today; it was like falling in love all over again. i've been doing cardio lately and I HATE IT. i like cycling and sports, but i hate fucking treadmills, elliptical machines, and other boring contraptions. like sports, there's immediate gratification in lifting weights. cardio machines are just torture. they put the tv on to make it better, but when they tune into soap operas and FOX news, in only gets worse.
strange, i'm not really missing the booze, so i think i'll just keep on abstaining from beer for a while and really devote myself to losing THE BAGLE.
i'm doing a little experiment: i started counting my calories. it's easy to have a calorie deficit when i'm not drinking beer! also, if my numbers are right, it's definitely possible to lost weight and still eat really amazing food. my body burns about 1900 calories a day, plus the 300 or so I burn at the gym (total guess but why not). and if i ate around 1500 calories of food today, that's about a 700 calorie deficit (give or take (probably take) a hundred or so). And check out the yummy food I ate:
pizza with zucchini, mushrooms, green pepper, onion and tomato
spinach salad with blue cheese, walnuts, and raspberry vinegarette
tacos with grilled veggies, fake meat, avacado, and spanish rice!!!
(apparently i've also been diverting my spastic-nic-fit anxiety into cooking.)
life is good at the moment, now time to get some sleep.
| Wednesday, May 18 | ||||||
| Amount | Cals | Fat | Carbs | Protein | ||
| Egg | 1 Scrambled | 101 | 7 | 1 | 7 | |
| Boca Breakfast Link | 1 serv | 70 | 4 | 3 | 7 | |
| wheat pizza crust | 1 serv | 170 | 2 | 32 | 6 | |
| zucchini | 1/2 cup | 38 | 1 | 8 | 3 | |
| mushroom | 1 shroom | 5 | 0 | 1 | 1 | |
| red onion | 3 tbsp | 13 | 0 | 3 | 1 | |
| spinach | 2 cups | 14 | 1 | 3 | 1 | |
| walnuts | .1 cup | 78 | 8 | 2 | 2 | |
| olive oil | 1 tbsp | 119 | 14 | 0 | 0 | |
| rasberry dressing | 2 Tbsp | 35 | 2 | 5 | 0 | |
| corn tortilla | 3 tortillas | 150 | 3 | 32 | 3 | |
| rice | 1 serv | 180 | 1 | 42 | 4 | |
| grilled veggies | 1/2 cup | 54 | 2 | 12 | 3 | |
| avacado | 1/2 avo | 161 | 15 | 9 | 2 | |
| mozarella cheese | 1/2 cup | 72 | 5 | 1 | 7 | |
| banana | 1 large | 121 | 1 | 31 | 2 | |
| soyrizo | 1 serv | 120 | 9 | 5 | 7 | |
| Cals | Fat | Carbs | Protein | |||
| Totals | 1501 | 75 | 190 | 56 |
