things have been a little crazy lately. i know i’ve been irresponsible… socially… academically… bloggily. it’s not that i forgot about you all, it’s just that, well, you know how i am when i’m stressed: it doesn’t suit me well, like baseball caps or lipstick. usually i don’t get rapt by anything except for a few people and my next meal, so anxiety cuts like a knife. i know many of you have forgotten about me and moved on with your little lives, but for those of you who remain interested in my little life, i’d like to relay to you some hefty tips for dealing with the fall blues.
the weather is great and the sun feels warm through your navy blue hoodie. but the leaves only change to brown in austin. and those evening walks that you thought would relax you only make you think too much about how clueless you are about where your life is going. but you don’t turn around and go back home because your bed is empty and unmade and the internet is out and you left the milk out so no cereal with your cnn before bedtime.
times like these call for comfort food.
i’m not terribly creative in the kitchen, so i rely heavily on allrecipes.com. my current favorites are black bean soup and vegetarian split pea soup (sans orzo).
more noteably, however, i happened to make a really tasty hummus sandwich the other day. you should try it, and feel free to adapt it to your taste. the key is in the dill:
monica’s hummus sandwhich (bad breath optional) recipe
ingredients:
- hummus of your choice (i made roasted red pepper hummus… use less garlic in the recipe if you don’t want to smell like garlic all day… or do like i do and use extra garlic!)
- sprouts (i use sunflower sprouts because i prefer their flavor to alfalfa sprouts which are just a little too intensely “sprout” for my tastes … you can buy both sprout varieties in bulk at Central Market! or don’t use sprouts at all… see if i care.)
- greens - use whatever you like… i actually just pull a mixed collection of greens from whatever salad happens to be in my fridge (spinach, arugala, whatever!)
- shredded carrot - crunch!
- sliced cucumber - more crunch!
- cucumber dill sauce - you know, the stuff you put on falafel! i had made some for falafel and used it for the sandwich… but since there’s already cucumber, i reckon you could just mix up some yogurt, dill, and garlic (or no garlic if you don’t wanna stink) and that would be just as good. if you don’t know what i’m talking about, then you’re a fool, and you should check out sean’s recipe for falafel and yogurt sauce.
- bread of your choice — i really like the wheat bread at new world deli on guadalupe.
you should know how to make a sandwich so i won’t bother with instructions for assembly. but it’s really tasty … i’ve had hummus sandwiches before, but usually they are lacking in the sauce department — the yogurt/dill thing really makes for a taste explosion.
it’s amazing what a little toast and veggies can do for the soul — that, and the kind words of kindred spirits. many of you have provided a fuckton of support and advice for which i am truly greatful. we all get a little crazy once in a while. thank you for not forgetting about me while i pick up the pieces.
that said, i still have no clue as to what i’m doing with my life. but maybe it’s just not the time or place to know the future. there’s only this, right? so as i train for the apocolypse, i’m trying not to get bogged down by my long term goals. they’re there, hovering in the mist like those gorillas.
“small steps, sparks, small steps.”
i haven’t had a drop of alcohol in almost 1 week — if you know me, you know that this is big. my current plan is “no beer until i lose 5 lbs”, but this is all very vague as i sense a jump in my weight as i start strength training again.
“and when i emerge, i will be a beautiful butterfly!”
tracey has a blog! her writing is absolutely lovely. she’s going to make me moist, someday.
We stood all alone
Waiting for this day to come
And I held you close
But I couldn’t feel your pain
I didn’t know
This would be the last time
This would be the last kiss
This was our goodbye
If you were letting go
I should’ve been the one you told
I never heard you say goodbye
And I’m sorry isn’t good enough
Because lately I’ve been giving up
And I’m sorry isn’t good enough
And your last goodbye
Made me realize
I’ll be alright
How could you laugh?
How could you lie to me?
You held me close
But I couldn’t feel your pain
I should’ve known
This couldn’t last forever
The last thing I remember
Was standing all alone
If you were letting go
I should’ve been the one you told
I never heard you say goodbye
And I’m sorry isn’t good enough
Because lately I’ve been giving up
And I’m sorry isn’t good enough
And your last goodbye
Made me realize I’ll be alright
And so suddenly
I’ve stopped falling down
I believe in me one more time
And I’m sorry
And I’m sorry isn’t good enough
Sorry
I’m sorry
And I’m sorry isn’t good enough
I’m sorry isn’t good enough
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
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