every semester since my senior year at uiuc i’ve considered looking for a job.
and come the end of every semester, i always find myself registered and willing to complete another 4-5 months of homework, exams, judgement, and humiliation.
the problem is as follows: school starts and i immediately think, “shit, i’ve just committed myself to another semester… i really need to start looking for jobs.” but as soon as i start, registration for the next semester begins and i find myself on my computer frantically trying to get into another 3 courses.
then there’s stuff like course advising — today i met with the big kahuna boosh in cam, and he said i was a “pioneer” because i was the first in the department to pursue math-bio.
so it made me feel kind of good and important.
and there’s no way i’m going to feel important at any job i get at this stage.
and then i think that most graduate students must feel this way but they just don’t say anything because people don’t sound smart when they’re grappling with their future.
search for me on yahoo. the first hit is yours truly, the second hit is as follows:
2. 05/07/03: Honors Graduate Monica Shaw on Her Way to Counseling …
fucking PURRRfect.
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